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Saturday, 09 January 2010

  • resolutions, yes again.

    Since we've crossed into the second week, I can safely assume this isn't an asinine 1st of January post since my resolution has been going well thankyouverymuch.

    ♥ No sodas* (well not really, I have like a can of soda allotted for each month. For chaser purposes lol)
    ♥ Train to start running a marathon - Currently, I'm on a couch to run training schedule :)

    Those are the ones going strong. I'd like to add these:

    ♥Be more free spirited. Do new things everyday. Or just do something!
    ♥Start going out more. Once a week, to a new gallery, bar, show, lounge, exhibit, etc.
    ♥Be more musically adventurous. Make it count.
    ♥Enter in a marathon + enter in walk for cancer <3
    ♥Read 2 books a month

    Books for January:-
    Memory Keepers Daughter
    Sophie's World (which is a reread so it doesnt count really)
    On The Road

    Life is good.

Tuesday, 01 December 2009

  • Mess

    Even after thanksgiving break, like on the Monday itself, one day in.. I feel so burnt out.

    So much shit happening. I think I like this boy and this boy likes me. My friend is ignoring me because of the aforementioned sitch because she had a crush on him for a long time (though I met the boy before knowing her last semester, and kind of liked him too, just that I never verbalize who I like and dislike), I had a scare with the plane tickets (though its sorted out, I'm flying back home on the 21st of December), I think I'm leading a second boy on (well, I'm really not but I think he likes me and I like hanging out with him though I'm trying to distance myself away from him just to blow off the steam-lust-train), I had a presentation and kinda blew it but turns out the prof didn't realize I was nervous and thought we did a good job of covering the grounds of our assigned topic so we're getting most of the 30% grade anyway -- though I had like a anxiety attack after the presentation.

    The only thing I ate today was a few cucumber slices and 2 spoons of broccoli cheddar soup. I have not had any appetite. Well I'm actually hungry but I can't put anything down my throat because I feel like throwing up if I do.

    I'm drinking a lot of water, just made some Teavana tea and I've smoked like 4 cigs so far today.

    I'm a hot mess. Without the alcohol.

    I need to vent though.

    I feel inadequate as a person. Why would anyone like me? Because I'm nice? Well everyones nice. Why would anyone like me? I'm not pretty. I'm fat. I'm a pig. I have no interests. I'm lazy. I'm stupid.

    And why am I so nice? Like really, why? Why do I care? Why?


    I need a hobby. Really bad.

    1. photography
    2. music instruments - guitar
    3. writing - short stories
    4. hiking
    5. climbing
    6. squash
    7. yoga/pilates
    8. cooking/baking
    9. volunteering
    10. art - drawing/painting/sketching
    11. knitting/crochet
    12. designing websites
    13. copywriting
    14. languages - Rosetta Stone Spanish
    15. dancing - belly dancing, or contemporary (like PCD)
    Victoria's Secret makes me sad. I feel fat as a house even looking at those girls wearing sweaters!

Saturday, 28 November 2009

  • Losing weight, dammit again

    I now weigh 145 pounds. 65kg.

    Goal is 55 kg, which is 121 pounds. We'll say 120 for short.

    1. 1200 cals a day
    2. 30 to 60 mins cardio, 5x's a week
    3. more vegetarian & organic, less carbs & sugar
    4. more water
    5. more fruits
    6. Mediterranean-inspired
    7. more wine
    8. more water
    9. less soda
    10. diet pills, fuck yes.
    B-oatmeal or cereal (most carbs)
    L-yogurt +salad +fruit or a medi-plate (more protein)
    D- salad + fruits



    Learn how to:-
    1. Do my makeup
      -smoky eyes
      -winged eyes
    2. Do my hair
      -tease hair
      -do hair bump
      -use curling iron
      -classy chignon


    Find a hobby (to distract self)
    • sewing
    • knitting
    • musical instrument (flute? guitar? violin?)
    • cooking
    • baking
    • photography
    • art (painting/drawing class?)
    • dance
    • sports: pilates, yoga, tennis, squash
    • learn sports: football, american football, baseball, basketball


Sunday, 30 August 2009

  • I need to get in shape

    So the last day of my internship was on Friday. Bittersweet. It means I'm going back to school in a week (less than a week now). And that's bittersweet as well.

    I started packing, I'm having problems packing! Frick haha!

    Ferragamo flats are def going into the bag, as well as all my Zara clothes courtesy of the shopaholic moments I had the past month!

    I need to go buy 2 pairs of jeans. And underwear. More than two pairs of course.

    Oh, and I need to start getting a fitness plan. To lose weight of course haha, I have the fattest legs and poochiest tummy. Its bad. Real bad. Summer was tres no good.

    Fitness plan to start tonight, 50 push ups, 100 crunches, 20 scissor kicks, 40 chair dips.

    Later loves.

Sunday, 23 August 2009

  • It all went up

    Past few days has been good. No preachings, which I'm happy for. If I have to sit through another one, I don't know how I'd keep from seething smoke from my ears.


    My two cousins & moi, out for drinks after Sunday Dim Sum : )


    So I packed my bags today. Well, when I said packed I mean chucked all my clothes and shit into a suitcase. I'm not bringing everything thats in it right now, an elimination process will have to commence, much like that of Project Runway scrutiny. I don't want to emulate the America's Next Top Model low criteria of judgment.

    Over in Providence, I never seem to have enough clothes. Casual or going out ones. Well actually I do better with going out ones but I shopped a lot when I was back here! So... its gonna be a packed suitcase. Fuck, I need to buy a bigger cabin bag. I don't want to accommodate the overweight single luggage by having to bring another bag in. Aghh!

    I bought this amazing dress from Warehouse which I'd been eyeing for 2 months. My sister paid for it as my birthday present, though now I'm trying to decide if I should get that dress from Zara. Love it love it love it. Its like a satin number with black & gold small patterns like leopard print, but its a shift dress, kind of. I love it but my sister said I'll get tired of it fast and it won't last long after a few washes. But I love it NOW!

    Trying to lose 5kg in 2.5 weeks. Damnnnnn. Luckily its the fasting season, so that plus the gym + skipping rope = gruelling work in taking that weight off. My legs are so chubby its annoying! All the good food got to my legs!

    I'm getting excited about decorating my room.

    Double hang closet rod
    Portable safe

    Ikea FÅNGST Hanging storage
    1
    2


    Love the July issue of L'Officiel.

    I'm trying to read up then summarize Psychology 101. Freud, OCEAN, Id, Ego and Superego, all that fun stuff. And Sociology 101 with some interesting terms in my brown leather bound notebook.

    I'm boring. It's all for the appearance of wit really, where wit doesn't exist. But also for my own amusement. How sad.

    I'm tempted to bring along my copy of Sophie's World in the suitcase.
    Currently
    French Women Don't Get Fat
    By Mireille Guiliano
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